keeponmoving

Im feeling so much better today……thanks for all your advice and kicks up the behind.  I know surgery is not the way to go. I just need to get a plan and stick with it no matter what!!!  Week 2 always seems to be the hardest one for me on any plan Im not sure why. But today I had an awesome time in church this morning and I just felt God saying to me you can do this.  So I just need to trust him and move forward with that fact. Bad days will come but I will not let them steal the joy of my ultimate goal.  I love BS the blogging just helps me feel better getting it all out brings relief…good and bad!!

I need to review my excercise/diet plan….the one im on is clearly not working for me I was kinda doing my own thing but I need to tweak it some more I don’t think it is realistic that is where im failing I need something that I can stick to for the long haul that incorporates some carbs and not eliminate them completely or can anyone recommend a plan that is easy to follow? I am a vegetarian so no meats for me.

Im feeling kinda low right now….had another bad day ate way too many carbs!!! Im not sure whats wrong with me I have been stressed out all week.  Im so sick and tired of being FAT!! I would love to have a magic pill to dissolve it. I am considering weight loss surgery I got back and forth with it although my husband is totally against it that is the only thing preventing me from doing it right now.  Im just so tired of being like this I am 33 and dont want to spend another year  like this.  I really want to stick to my diet but its sooo difficult.  I wish I knew the secret of success. I am still determined to lose weight one way or another is has to come off. I got a bit of a scare this week. I had heart palpatations and they really worried me. I need to lose weight for my health.  Tomorrow is another day let it be a better one. I pray it will God help me.

Thats right confession time last night we went out for dinner late I might add and I ate a whole 10 inch cheese pizza!!! I intended to take some of it home but I ate the whole thing. I was so hungry I never ate any lunch so I was kind of saving my calories because I knew we were going out for dinner. I felt bad when I got home and this is usually what leads me to veer off the diet. But no not this time…..I got up and went to the gym woo hoo Im back on the wagon.  Today is day 11 and Im doing pretty good overall apart from this one slip up.  The reality of weight loss is setting in it takes HARD work and determination & patience.  I have learned from this….Note to self - Do not wait long periods of time before eating because you get ravenous and plan ahead!!!

It took me all my effort to get out of bed this morning.  The thought of the gym was making me want to roll over and go back to sleep. Im so tired today…I think it is the lack of sugar finally kicking in It is day 8. I feel like reaching for a snickers bar lol But I won’t. I managed to do 25 mins on the elliptical and I did feel so much better after it. But I still feel really tired overall. Anyways I am really pleased I lost 4lbs this week although for a moment I wanted it to be more. The work you put in never really seems to fit the loss on the scale. Then my lovely (skinny) husband reminded me 4lbs is good and that im not on the biggest loser I am not gonna drop 10lbs every week.  So yeah for 4lbs

It has only been 5 days but im doing good With the help of God and self control I can do this.  I have found the food journal  on BS really helps me more than I thought it would.  Seeing everything that goes into my body on paper (screen) really helps me stick to my plan.

 I never made the gym today I overslept and really just needed to rest. My muscles ache from doing weights yesterday. I so enjoyed the rest back to the gym tomorrow.

 I have noticed this week that I actually have an apetite and feel hungry. Something that I have not felt in such a long time. When you eat too much you never really feel your body telling you this. As you are always in a state of fullness. I am a comfort/emotional eater and I generally just love food.  This week I noticed it takes work to not eat when you bored, frustated, happy and sad.  When you are so used to doing it im sure it will take a while for me to relearn not to.  I cannot say I miss it at all I love the feeling of being in control of what goes into my body and not feeling stuffed and guilty. Why does food bring so much emotion with it I wonder.

 Anyways I just wanted to note this state of Joy I have right now about my journey of weight loss.  I actually feel that this time I will succeed.   I can and I will  - All things are possible….I need to hang on to that.

Here we are day 1 (again) of trying to lose weight and get back to my healthy eating. Im determined to be a skinny girl lol Well not quite skinny just lose the excess weight I have.  I have pretty much always been a big girl. I have never really been small. This is my rocky road epic on my way to losing pounds. I have been trying my whole life to lose weight. Now Im GOING to do it. Although I have tried countless times before but I will try again and keep trying until I get the results I want. I saw this poem online and it really inspired me to just really take it 1 pound at a time. Im in such a rush when I don’t see big  numbers I get so frustrated. But this time its true it all went on 1 pound at a time now its time for it to come off 1 pound at a time.

Hello! Do you know me?
If you don’t, you should. I’m a pound of fat.
And I am the happiest pound of fat that you would ever want to meet.
Want to know why?
It’s because no one ever wants to lose me.
I’m only one pound, just a pound!
Everyone wants to lose three pounds, five pounds, or fifteen pounds, but never only one.
So I just stick around and happily keep you fat.
Then I add to myself, ever so slyly, so that you never seem to notice it.
That is until I’ve grown to ten, twenty, thirty or even more pounds in weight.
Yes, it’s fun being only one pound of fat, left to do as I please.
So, when you weigh in, keep right on saying, “Oh, I only lost one pound.”
(As if that were such a terrible thing)
For you see, if you do this, you’ll encourage others to keep me around because they’ll think I’m not worth losing.
And, I love being around you-your arms, your legs, your chin, your hips and every part of you.
After all, I’m only one pound of fat!!!